This might be a bit surprising for the people who entered my life after Grade 10, but I, too, struggled with mental illness at one point in my life. I never really brought it up anymore over the past few years because I had almost forgotten that it used to be a big part of my life.
I often hear people say that there is no cure to mental illness, depression, anxiety, etc., and that you have to learn to live with it for the rest of your life. But let me tell you, that was not the case for me. It is 100% possible to completely free yourself from all your pain, suicidal thoughts, and everything else that makes you feel helpless and miserable. It is possible to not have to deal with anxiety and depression anymore. You have to believe in yourself and trust the process. Once you believe, you are already half-way there. ☺
If I didn’t believe that things will get better and that it was possible for me to experience inner peace and freedom, then I would still be consumed by all my fears, doubts and depressing thoughts.
Like many, I have had suicidal thoughts. I let my grades define my self-worth. I was an emotional mess and I felt so lost. For the longest time, I kept it all to myself because I thought people would judge, laugh at, and think less of me once they find out about what I was going through. Eventually, I opened up and spoke up about my struggles. To my surprise, my close friends and family didn’t judge me. Rather, they were incredibly supportive and empathetic. Gradually, I opened up even more. I allowed myself to be vulnerable and I accepted that it is okay to be struggling and to be experiencing so much pain. I stopped beating myself over not being “normal” and I started trying new things that are outside of my comfort zone. I looked out for people and things that inspire me, kept my mind open and embraced change. It wasn’t easy at first, but I knew I had to change – I started on the journey of personal growth and happiness. Five years later, I am happier than I have ever been and I am constantly challenging myself to be the best version of myself.
Believe in yourself.
Trust and be patient with the process.
Talk to the people that you’re comfortable with about your struggles.